I am sooo beat today, I'm hungover, lethargic and I feel like I need to have an iv put into me to hydrate my body. I have been drinking alot lately and not just often but alot. Last night was another night filled with lots of alcohol consumption and crazy happenings, I was with Samantha, Charlotte and a few others at Bricktown.. They have this free bottle beer night every Friday night. I had ditched "Mr Big" to be there for Samantha because she's got a guy she interested in and wants to be supported. So I expected for "Berger" to go because he goes every where with us. But he turned us down, as soon as I heard that my heart dropped I really felt uneasy that he wasn't going to be there. Am I suddenly gaining feelings for "Berger" I was astonished at myself for feeling that way. Later in the night he showed up and surprised all of us. Samantha was soo happy that he was there she gave him a standing ovation in which I was involved in as well. But when he did show I felt like I was missing him the entire time and I was overjoyed that he was there. Later that night after 3 jaeger shots and 5 beers, him and I had gotten in a lip lock. I don't know how it happened but from my recollection I was the initiator. My eyes were closed and I could feel that this wasn't just a random kiss it was really coming from my heart. I could almost feel him pouring his heart out to me in his kiss.. I may be over analyzing this whole occurrence but I just cant help it. Samantha is exhilarated about this, could it be that I am looking into this from a different angle because she is constantly telling me how great he is and I am now seeing her side of his wonderful-ness and there are absolutely no cons...Oh Lord, I am just sooo f-ing confused...